dreams and whimsy or insecurities and hormones? Good god.
Whatever. This is my place to vent. (Hello cheap therapy!)
But to make sure this doesnt turn into a bitch session, I will mention the smiles of the day.
Good News:
past clients will be in Paris at the same time as myself = more couples for my portfolio . sweet.
possible job opportunity in London/Cambridge .sweet.
finished another job, ahead of schedule.
I have lovely, truth speaking, supportive friends who genuinely love and care for me. My life is rich.
I now have a community of beautiful, creative and delightful people that work and live in Sacramento.
I have kind, sweet, hard working, well meaning parents who support me and are there for me in their fullest capacity. I am so grateful.
This year I have had the freedom to choose clients that I really love to work with. I have also had the freedom in my schedule to breath, travel and live life. I am so grateful.
I have a plane ticket to Paris, with friends that live there waiting to welcome me. A dream come true.
I am making progress. Even if it is slow, even if I’m unsure of the direction. My business has not failed. I will make it through. My destination is unsure, but every day I put one foot in front of the other. Sometimes I’m running, sometimes I have to walk. But this is progress.
You’ve accomplished much Sarah. You will make it through.
It’s ok to mourn the loss. Your home, your old life, your old love. But stop looking back. Time to face the future. Make new plans. Build a new home, create a new life and find a new love.
Make good decisions. Take care of yourself. Love those around you. Be kind. but most of all, be free.
