I have enough money for rent.
My back itches. I really enjoy hot showers.
It’s been raining for three days straight. My engagement session is rescheduled until tomorrow. Promises of sun just around the corner.
A nightmare that woke me. My kids crying. Me unable to help them even though I was fighting to do so.
Mexico is 4 days away. I need some sun on my skin and unknown adventure at my fingertips.
We’ve talked about moving in together. I struggle with articulating my needs. My need for space, light, and peace. Space that is just mine and no one else’s.
I struggle with scaring him away, with forcing him to realize his mistake, and losing my one final hold on the bay area I can afford.
I struggle.
I need a good long run. In the rain.
But I have a wedding I need to edit and finish today.
Today.
