Manic – Is how I find myself feeling these days.
Somehow I cannot find the mental tenacity to maintain peace and joy that I find throughout the day. My mental monster tares a part everything that is good in my life showing me the negative awful, insecure, narcissistic elements of myself.
Truth – I will be ok. I will survive. I will have moments of joy. I will have moments of trial. I’ll have to pick myself up a few times, but guess what. Joy comes in the morning.
I have done incredible things with my life. I’ve made good decisions and bad. I have carried myself forward beyond all sorts of hardships.
Give myself grace, give grace to others. Don’t be such a critic (haha look at me). Breath, breath, breath, breath.
Who are you Sarah? Who do you want to be?
Happy, balanced, hungry, driven, successful, compassionate, strong.
Strong, strong, strong.
Be the best me.
Excuse me, Im seeking balance. Balance has to be sought. You don’t simply bump into it.
I need a line of security that is my own. I need a job.
A path. A direction.
Give myself time. Allow myself this process of change. The next thing is coming. It will find me or I will reach for it when I see it.
Until then, breath.
