Some downtime.
This week has nothing (much) on the calendar. A wedding this weekend, a wedding next weekend. An inbox full of emails and a to do list a mile long.
I donned my bright blue maxi and grabbed coffee with a lone wolf (an older gent that’s trying SO HARD to get into my pants).. for kicks and giggles I suppose.
I saw Rob. Again. Thank glory to be I was dressed WELL and felt HAWT. He even remarked how vibrant I was. I said it was a good hair day, he said it was a good everything day.
I needed to hear that. From him.
Good. Hard. Heartwrenching. and somehow healing. Completely familiar. A complete stranger.
I guess that is how things are sometimes.
My french lessons are coming along. My body is responding to is beatings. 10 miles on the bike yesterday on top of an hour of weight training. two more days of that this week plus yoga this weekend.
2 weeks until EU. I miss it so much.
I’m struggling so much lately with feeling “stupid”, “uneducated”, “lower middle class”.
How do these things define me or participate in my life. I can only read so much, have time for self development and life within my means. I always feel this way after being at my parents for a while. Or being around people who are overly educated. *ugh* I just don’t know what the answer is.
6 weeks until I submit my visa application.
*say a prayer for me*
