Today I went to a food truck and boutique market for Sacramento. It was a great turn out of midtowners. Everyone was there. A lot of people that I enjoy seeing on a regular basis around town. Except this time it was out for a cause instead of at the coffee shop/restaurant/bar that I usually see them at. And this time, they had their girlfriend, wife and mother with them. And this time they completely ignored me blew me off or was just rude.
All of a sudden things are crystal clear. I have been my normal, happy friendly self. The one that is free to be and not afraid. I thought I had made friends. Turns out they weren’t looking for a friend. I’m so bummed, hurt and disgusted. Is it impossible to make a friend? Or are all men just looking for fuck buddies? I want to believe they are capable of more. I’m not really convinced of such.
Makes me want to email the spaniard and say don’t bother. Or atleast tell him that he that is all he is looking for then I’ve already got plenty of options to choose from, I dont need another. … but if he just wanted sex he wouldn’t have had to fly 3000 miles for it. or spend the $$. or take the time off of work etc., .. right?
Oh naive silly Sarah. Will you ever learn?
