Today is too much.
Too many solicitations from men. I am so burnt out.
I wonder what it is about me ( or if I am the one that is prompting it?) that allows for this type of interaction to even take place. I think sometimes I am ok with it, probably even look for it. But really? Is there no level of decency left for a man to even want to pursue something beyond one night? It seems like a even the concept “cup of coffee conversation” has no place in a mans world. Even though I do not want a relationship right now does not mean that I don’t enjoy the company of man. What is so wrong to want to go out, enjoy food, conversation, people places things. But no, guys just want to know that the end effort will be in their bed. for the night at best. Maybe I am functioning on some level of naivety, or perhaps I just keep meeting shitty men.
::sigh::
I canceled my date for the evening and have stayed in my pjs all day. I have gotten a decent amount of work accomplished for the day. I am feeling productive.
Tomorrow is a full day. Shooting, a friends birthday party and then Portugal early on Saturday. I have mixed feelings, but whatever. It’s Portugal. It will be great regardless.
